Identifying as fictional and a living character

[anomalymonster]

I wanted to share my post-othercon thoughts somewhere, and I decided to just sit down and write to share it.

I think my fictionkinity as a whole might be tied to a concept identity of being fictional. I identify as a fictional character, even outside of being a specific fictional character as it is with fictionkin. "Living Character" is an archetypal identity that I have and is tied to how I also identify with the entire concept of fictionality. 

My views of fiction vs. reality with alterhumanity is that fiction is still a subjective experience. This means that for me, even if I have memories and experiences as a walk-in and despite being very canon compliant with my memories, I still see that reality as a fork off of the original books. I and my home reality came from the books instead of the other way around. My views of fictional realities are similar to what egregores are where there's a level of collective thought to it. To me, this doesn't make me view my experiences and identity as any less real, but it makes it so I see myself spiritually and literally as fictional. 

This makes more sense to me to view it within being a concept identity. It ties a lot of feelings I have together in a way I don't think my living character archetype fully encompass. Fictionality could be one of my keystones and it was something that came up quite a bit while I was identity mapping after the paratypes panel.  

I think it may be close to a collective concept identity for my system, and might explain why we have so many fictives. We've always identified to an extent as fictional as a whole and so fictional species persist as the most common species. My views of the nature of my fictivehood is also something I know other fictives in my system have resonated with. 

I'd need to explore this more with myself and with my system. As I read through others posts in this community, I think my experiences of fictionality are at least on the exact same concept wavelength as others' experiences.